Tuesday, 19 February 2013
Things just getting too much!
I have been in pretty much turmoil emotionally with all the potential complications being thrown at us and to top it off work is becoming very busy and the expectations of me whilst in the office is crazy, especially with managing the team. It came to a point where I was becoming ill and one day Dan got in from work to find me on the bed crying my eyes out and I just felt like I was having a little breakdown, I was losing control!
I called in sick and went to the doctors, I asked them to sign me off work for a couple of weeks so I could try and get myself back together as this wasn't good for mine or the babies health. In addition, I wanted Steven (my boss) to have a bit of a wake up call that I wasn't coping. I have this ability to just get on with things in the office and people depend on me to do a good job so keep throwing things at me, it was recruitment, redundancies, difficult employee issues and it was just getting too much.
I sent Steven an email letting him know I have been signed off and that I would call him to discuss. I was quite emotionally on the call and I think that made him realise that I wasn't in the best place. He was quite understanding.
I went up to stay with my mum with Sienna and as always being around family seems to help loads. I was feeling as though the twins were draining my body and I just felt horrendous all the time.
We told Sienna about the babies and now a bump is showing she is starting to understand but when I ask where mummy's babies are she says '1, 2, 3, 10!' Hmmm, no sweetheart, mummy's not having 10 babies....
We have started getting quotes for our garden to get it fixed up. We thought it would be a good time so it would be ready for the Summer (if we get one) and Sienna can get running around in it. We ended up going with Baxter and Son's and they start in a few weeks (it's costing us £5,900, yikes) but they have to get rid of all the horrible weeds, re-lawn the whole lot, put up new fences, a raised bed, trellis, sort out a play areas for Sienna and pretty much make it look like a family garden rather than dump and weed site!
Friday, 15 February 2013
St George's Appointments
It is safe to say that I seem to be spending majority of my time at St George's hospital and most of that is just waiting around..... my appointments are usually first things (about 9.30am), I wait around, do my scan then wait around for the midwife to usually finish about lunchtime! It is a lot of waiting!! Luckily work/Steven has been really good and flexible and I tend to work from home the afternoon of my appointments which is good. Especially as work is pretty busy and as you can imagine, I am kind of distracted with other things rather than work.
I have been thinking of when I will finish work and I can imagine it will be sooner rather than later but we will see.
Over the course of a few weeks the scans were becoming more and more positive and things were remaining stable. One twin was definately taking more than the other but the size difference wasn't increasing which is a good sign.
Professor Basky indicated that it therefore will be unlikely that I will need to have the laser treatment, phew! It's still a concern though and they continue to scan me every 2 weeks.
It's funny because when we first found out we were having twins it was a turbo shock and to be honest not really what we wanted (sorry girls but one baby is hard work, let alone two little monkeys at the same time!). But, once we found out there were potential problems it suddenly created this unbreakable bond and brought us so close to our babies and we just wanted them here safe and sound. In addition, finding out we were having girls also created an image of the new little family we were created. We were determined to get these babies fit and well and into the world!!!
I have been thinking of when I will finish work and I can imagine it will be sooner rather than later but we will see.
Over the course of a few weeks the scans were becoming more and more positive and things were remaining stable. One twin was definately taking more than the other but the size difference wasn't increasing which is a good sign.
Professor Basky indicated that it therefore will be unlikely that I will need to have the laser treatment, phew! It's still a concern though and they continue to scan me every 2 weeks.
It's funny because when we first found out we were having twins it was a turbo shock and to be honest not really what we wanted (sorry girls but one baby is hard work, let alone two little monkeys at the same time!). But, once we found out there were potential problems it suddenly created this unbreakable bond and brought us so close to our babies and we just wanted them here safe and sound. In addition, finding out we were having girls also created an image of the new little family we were created. We were determined to get these babies fit and well and into the world!!!
Tuesday, 5 February 2013
TTTS - Stage 1 (but they're GIRLS!)
We went for our scan at St Georges with a consultant called Professor Basky Thilaganathan who is suppose to be fantastic in Fetal Medicine. He also apparently delivered the royal baby of Edward and Sophie which is pretty impressive.
He indicated at the scan that he didn't believe the large nuchal measurement was an indication of Downs Syndrome but believed the twins have Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome (TTTS) at stage 1. This is a life threatening syndrome that only occurs in Monochoronic Twins (who share a placenta). In a nutshell it's one baby taking too much of the blood from the placenta than the other so one baby grows more than the other. It can be life threatening to one or both babies but it can also be treated with a laser operation.
Again, another bombshell dropped on us and our poor twins. They are therefore needing me to visit St Georges once a week to have further scans and see whether TTTS develops. They have told me to keep an eye out for excessive thirst (I'm always thirsty anyway so that's a tricky one) and tightening of tummy.
It's a nightmare because once someone tells you those symptoms you feel like you have them all the time!!!
After I found out that news, I put my application through for a transfer from St Helier altogether to have my full care at St Georges. I felt that it would be best for my care to be in one place and from a bit of online research St Georges is highly recommended for twin pregnancies so I thought it would be best. Thankfully my transfer was accepted with no problems. They also have a specialist twin midwife who I am meeting next wee, woo hoo!
At the scan, the consultant indicated that I will probably need have a c-section rather than natural birth, yikes!! Although, the thought of pushing out 2 babies sounds pretty tough so it may be the best option!
Also, he said that it will be unlikely that I will be able to fly to Rome. I will be about 32 weeks at the point of Fran and Russ's wedding and BA will let me fly up until the end of the 32 week (if single pregnancy would be end of 34 week) if I have a doctors letter to state there are no complications. The midwife and professor indicated that they wouldn't 'sign me off' to fly. I would be gutted if I couldn't make it to the wedding :0(
Also, we found out the sex of the little bambinos..... we are having identical girls!! Woo hoo. I don't feel gutted that we aren't having a boy. I think twin girls will be fab and so lovely when they are older and playing with Sienna. It will be my very own Kardashian family (for you little ladies reading this in years to come, the Kardashians are a huge family in USA who have their own reality TV show who leave this glamorous lifestyle) Well your mummy loves the show Keeping up with the Kardashians! hehe.
Dan was also very chuffed we were having girls. I thought he might be gutted not to have a boy but I think he has got use to Sienna and how cute and gentle she is compared to boys, I think he is very happy that we will have more girlies to add to our little (soon to be big) family.
He indicated at the scan that he didn't believe the large nuchal measurement was an indication of Downs Syndrome but believed the twins have Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome (TTTS) at stage 1. This is a life threatening syndrome that only occurs in Monochoronic Twins (who share a placenta). In a nutshell it's one baby taking too much of the blood from the placenta than the other so one baby grows more than the other. It can be life threatening to one or both babies but it can also be treated with a laser operation.
Again, another bombshell dropped on us and our poor twins. They are therefore needing me to visit St Georges once a week to have further scans and see whether TTTS develops. They have told me to keep an eye out for excessive thirst (I'm always thirsty anyway so that's a tricky one) and tightening of tummy.
It's a nightmare because once someone tells you those symptoms you feel like you have them all the time!!!
After I found out that news, I put my application through for a transfer from St Helier altogether to have my full care at St Georges. I felt that it would be best for my care to be in one place and from a bit of online research St Georges is highly recommended for twin pregnancies so I thought it would be best. Thankfully my transfer was accepted with no problems. They also have a specialist twin midwife who I am meeting next wee, woo hoo!
At the scan, the consultant indicated that I will probably need have a c-section rather than natural birth, yikes!! Although, the thought of pushing out 2 babies sounds pretty tough so it may be the best option!
Also, he said that it will be unlikely that I will be able to fly to Rome. I will be about 32 weeks at the point of Fran and Russ's wedding and BA will let me fly up until the end of the 32 week (if single pregnancy would be end of 34 week) if I have a doctors letter to state there are no complications. The midwife and professor indicated that they wouldn't 'sign me off' to fly. I would be gutted if I couldn't make it to the wedding :0(
Also, we found out the sex of the little bambinos..... we are having identical girls!! Woo hoo. I don't feel gutted that we aren't having a boy. I think twin girls will be fab and so lovely when they are older and playing with Sienna. It will be my very own Kardashian family (for you little ladies reading this in years to come, the Kardashians are a huge family in USA who have their own reality TV show who leave this glamorous lifestyle) Well your mummy loves the show Keeping up with the Kardashians! hehe.
Dan was also very chuffed we were having girls. I thought he might be gutted not to have a boy but I think he has got use to Sienna and how cute and gentle she is compared to boys, I think he is very happy that we will have more girlies to add to our little (soon to be big) family.
Saturday, 2 February 2013
Midwife Appointment - St Helier
Midwife Booking Appointment
14 weeks
I arrived at St Helier to have my booking appointment. This is the appointment where they ask all the questions (family history, medical history etc) and take weight, height etc. As it is my second pregnancy and Sienna was born at St Helier they would have all my previous notes so this session should be quick and easy....
After arriving I find that they have lost all my notes and that they don't really have an idea of what was happening with my scans, potential complications and that I had been transferred to St Georges for further tests. She didn't even know that I was carrying twins and if she had of known she would have booked my appointment with the twin midwife. Great!
The appointment went on for some time and after the session I started thinking I might transfer to St Georges altogether because quite clearly the two hospitals don't communicate and St Georges seems to be more specialised in twin pregnancies.
14 weeks
I arrived at St Helier to have my booking appointment. This is the appointment where they ask all the questions (family history, medical history etc) and take weight, height etc. As it is my second pregnancy and Sienna was born at St Helier they would have all my previous notes so this session should be quick and easy....
After arriving I find that they have lost all my notes and that they don't really have an idea of what was happening with my scans, potential complications and that I had been transferred to St Georges for further tests. She didn't even know that I was carrying twins and if she had of known she would have booked my appointment with the twin midwife. Great!
The appointment went on for some time and after the session I started thinking I might transfer to St Georges altogether because quite clearly the two hospitals don't communicate and St Georges seems to be more specialised in twin pregnancies.
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